Sunday, May 8, 2011


In red letters it said “Contempt.”  There was a service at 5 p.m. which meant that I would need to leave work early if I wanted to make it on time.  So, I prayed about it and I felt the Holy Spirit impress upon my heart to go there.  When I was leaving my supervisor stopped me and he was kind of chatty.  I hopped in my new car and flew down Clairmont to the North Crossing, up Hwy 53 then clear to the end of Melby Road –going 70 in a 35.  I prayed Lord, “How do I even get there?  I’m not sure if I remember, please don’t let me get pulled over or lost.  Lord is this my imagination or do you really want me there tonight?” 

I walked into the big beautiful church and made it for the last worship song.  Immediately, I felt the Holy Spirit upon me and through that place.  I felt awkward and exposed.  I felt a holy fear for God.  The message was a series on Contempt.  Letting go of things like anger, pride, the past things that have held me in bondage to the point of “ownership.” Mainly, my divorce from J.

The Baptist preacher was all fire and brimstone.  The worship singer had an alternative but sweet and low voice.  The place was jammed packed; the lights were dim.  Everyone was given a sharp piece of barbed wire to hold through the service.  Left of the stage was a rugged cross and on the right was a wooden treasure chest. 

The pastor said that the barbed wire was the Contempt that kept us in bondage.  The chest was where lock people up inside our minds and hearts, who have offended us.  This control, pride, hatred, resentment, hurt feelings, and Contempt separate us from spending our life in freedom and can even separate us from spending eternity with the True Living God.  The wolf is the Contempt that keeps us from enjoying love and experiencing all the good things that God has planned for us.

The pastor said it much better but I felt and knew that God wanted me there tonight and that I needed to hear this message more than I needed to continue breathing.  So, then he had us lay down the barbed wire as a symbol of laying down our pride.  Then, immediately after laying down the barbed wire we picked up the bread and the wine to receive Holy Communion.  During the service, the pastor had us squeeze the sharp metal just a little as we prayed to the Father to help us and show us how to let this Contempt go once and for all so that we could fully experience the life that Christ died and rose again to give us.

I remember seeing the giant man in front of me, wiping tears away, beneath the dimly lit room, hiding his emotions.  I felt like crying too but promised myself I could cry in the car on the way home.  We prayed and the service ended after another worship song.  From the time I left the church until I got to Border’s I could not stop shouting praises to God and praying in tongues.  I was overwhelmed with gratitude.  What an awesome and wonderful God we serve.

I can still hear the pastor shouting, “Is this what your really want?  Do you want to feel the pain of this rage and anger for the rest of your life?  Imagine this barbed wire wrapping itself all around you.  Imagine it locking you in and keeping others out.  Imagine everyone being wrapped up in this wire through the whole city.  Jesus died to set us free from this prison.  They punched him and ripped out his beard.  They nailed him to the rugged cross and he poured out his blood so that we could be forgiven, so that we could be free.” 

He said that we can pray to the Holy Spirit to help us walk on the path that leads to Eternal Life with God and that we should pay attention to our inner man.  When we start to feel ourselves walking down the wrong path to Contempt again, the Holy Spirit will help us say “No!” to the anger and the bitterness until eventually the wrong path is covered with thorns and bushes and we won’t have room to walk there anymore.  The Lord will bring us to the path of righteousness where we belong, where we are free to follow and worship him.  So, we can love others and let them love us.  I am sure the pastor said it much better but I was amazed and completely in awe of our Wonderful Make and Father. 

Lord Jesus, thank you, that you poured out your blood on the cross to save me and to make me whole.  I love you and I want to live with you in Eternity.  You are the Prince of Peace and worthy of all praise and glory.  Father God; Abba Father
I worship you. Holy Spirit, Wow!  You were awesome in this place tonight! I pray you make me faithful in going to worship so I can hear the message.  I pray you cover me with your grace in all my ways of thinking and doing.  Forgive me for my sins.  I fully repent of all anger, malice, rage, disobedience, hatred, untruthfulness, and rebellion.  Please lead me into all truth and Godly wisdom.  Bless my children in all their ways and help me to be a good mom to them.  In the Mighty Name of Jesus –Amen! 10/23/10


Jeremiah 33: AMP
Call to me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things, fenced in and hidden, which you do not know (do not distinguish and recognize, have knowledge of and understand).

Why did God choose Israel out of all the nations in the world? We are heirs of the promises belonging to Abraham through faith in Jesus.

For this [forgiveness] let everyone who is godly pray –pray to you in a time when you may be found. Surely when the great waters [of trial] overflow, they shall not reach the [the spirit in] him. Psalm 32:6

You are a hiding place for me. You Lord, preserve me from trouble. You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Psalm 33:7

Father God, instruct me and teach me in the Way I should go. Counsel me with your eye upon me. I acknowledge my sin to you and my iniquity. I will not hide from you. I confess my transgressions to you. Father, Jehovah Rapha/Rophe, continually unfolding the past till all is told. Then you instantly forgave me the guilt of iniquity of my sin. Psalm 32:5

Father, you kept me safe on the Mt. Pass (Hinds feet) setting me firm on the heights that my feet didn’t slip. You kept me alive because you delighted in me and you have a plan and purpose for my life. Jeremiah 29:11

Lord, restore, heal, make whole, complete me. Honor the good and rightful desires of my heart to be with, raise and provide for my children. It is not your will for us to be separated or to live in poverty. Show me what to do. Show me favor in the work place.

I will not fear man. I will not worship false idols; nor will I set up an alter to anyone but you. You are the Lord heals all of our diseases. You are the only true God. There is no other. You are my helper, my Lord and my King. Show me what I am supposed to be doing for work. Don’t let me be put to shame. Pluck my feet from the net. Deliver me (and my children) from the snare of the fowler. You make all things new. Make me new. Elohim, make a Way where there seems like there is no way. Change the hearts of my enemies. Protect me from the evil plans of my foes –from the evil plans of men. Pull my life from the pit. Deliver me from the hands of my enemies. I worship you and believe and trust in your great name. You alone are God and there is no other. In Jesus name Amen. 3/24/11

Jehovah Shalom – The Lord is Peace
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. The name of the Lord is a strong tower the righteous run into and are safe. You are my fortress and deliverer. You hide me in the shelter of your presence. The Lord Almighty wasn’t in the earthquake or the fire. His voice came in a gentle whisper 1Kings 19:12

Lord, help me to hear and recognize your voice.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.

Lord, take me into your confidence. Proverbs 3:32
Holy Spirit, teach me sound judgment and discernment.
I will not fear sudden disaster or the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the Lord will be my confidence and will keep my foot from being snared. Proverbs 3:25-26

Holy Spirit, teach me wisdom, that I may live by your word. Holy Spirit, teach me to guard my heart. “By His knowledge the deeps were divided and the clouds let drop their dew.”

After you have done everything to stand, stand firm then. But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded. 2Chron15:7

Lord God, help me to use the talents you have given me according to your word in Matthew 25 for your glory Amen.

Sunday, November 7, 2010


On another Sabbath, he entered the synagogue and was teaching, and a man was there whose right hand was withered. And the scribes and the Pharisees watched him, to see whether he would heal on the Sabbath, so that they might find a reason to accuse him. But he knew their thoughts, and he said to the man with the withered hand, “Come and stand here.” And he rose and stood there. And Jesus said to them, “I ask you, is it lawful on the Sabbath to do good or to do harm, to save life or to destroy it?” And after looking around at them all he said to him, “Stretch out your hand.” And he did so, and his hand was restored. But they were filled with fury and discussed with one another what they might do to Jesus.
~Luke 6:7-10~ ESV †

Friday, November 5, 2010


As they sailed, he fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Master, Master, we’re going to drown!” He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. “Where is your faith?” he asked his disciples. In fear and amazement they asked one another, “Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him.”
~Luke 8:23-25~ NIV

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


Psalm 23 (Amplified Bible)
A Psalm of David.
1THE LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
2He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still and restful waters.(A)
3He refreshes and restores my life (myself); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him--not for my earning it, but] for His name's sake.
4Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.
5You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with [a]oil; my [brimming] cup runs over.
6Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.
Holy Spirit, help me to do the things I must do. In your power, not mine.
In the Mighty name of Jesus, Amen.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light do we see light
~Psalm 37: 9~ AMP 

Trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) in the Lord and do good; so shall you dwell in the land and feed surely on His faithfulness, and truly you shall be fed.
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident0 also in Him and He will bring it to pass.
And He will make your uprightness and right standing with God go forth as the light, and your justice and right as [the shining sun of ] the noon-day.
Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself upon Him; fret not yourself because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked devices to pass.
Cease from anger and forsake wrath; fret not yourself –it tends only to evildoing.
For evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait and hope and look for the Lord [in the end] shall inherit the earth. [Isa. 57:13c]


Luke 9:10-17 (New International Version © 2010)

Jesus Feeds the Five Thousand

10 When the apostles returned, they reported to Jesus what they had done. Then he took them with him and they withdrew by themselves to a town called Bethsaida, 11 but the crowds learned about it and followed him. He welcomed them and spoke to them about the kingdom of God, and healed those who needed healing.12 Late in the afternoon the Twelve came to him and said, “Send the crowd away so they can go to the surrounding villages and countryside and find food and lodging, because we are in a remote place here.”13 He replied, “You give them something to eat.”They answered, “We have only five loaves of bread and two fish—unless we go and buy food for all this crowd.” 14(About five thousand men were there.)But he said to his disciples, “Have them sit down in groups of about fifty each.” 15The disciples did so, and everyone sat down. 16 Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke them. Then he gave them to the disciples to distribute to the people. 17 They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over.